Yes, it's 3:44am. I've been having trouble sleeping lately. This often happens to me in times of transition or stress. I lie awake and think and worry. My mind races with "what if"s and "I wonder"s. Many nights I've only been sleeping four or five hours...
The funny thing is, when I don't get enough sleep, I lose the ability to finish a sentence. Halfway through talking to someone, my mind short-circuits or something. There's a pause, and then I have to ask them what I was just saying.
It's funny, because if I would shut up more in my prayer life and meditate on the Lord rather than my circumstances, I bet I would sleep a lot better. If only my brain would short-circuit in mid-worry the way my mouth short-circuits mid-sentence...
The other morning I woke up at 8am. I hadn't fallen asleep until after 4, but forgot to turn off the calendar alarm on my cellphone. As I laid there, the Lord brought to mind a verse that He frequently reminds me of when I go through these boughts with insomnia:
"It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for He gives to His beloved sleep."
Psalm 127:2 (ESV)
I really have nothing else to say after that. I'm going to go to bed now.
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That's basically been my life for the last 3.5 years....